Allison Kay Faulks
September 6, 2006
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November 17, 2007
Once in every life time we are truely blessed.
For a brief moment in time we were blessed with a Daughter.
A tiny little angel sent from God
Altho you could stay but a short time
You touched our lives with so much joy
Allison, my sweet baby girl
You have left your footprints
all over our hearts.
Jesus has a rocking chair
He holds that precious baby
with oh, such tender care.
He takes the place of Mom and Dad
He's the greatest parent a child could have
Don't worry ‘bout the children there
Jesus has a rocking chair.
This is my daughter Allison Kay Faulks Story:
Well it all started when she was about 9 1/2 months and she
was at the age of trying to crawl and pull up to things such
as furniture. We started noticing that she was not raising
her left arm. She would not reach for things on her left side
at all! She would take her right arm and reach to her left
side to pick things up. She has always been a real lazy baby,
she would sleep beside me all day if I would have let her.
(She get's it from her mommy) So we always thought that it
was because she was lazy. I waited about 2 weeks and tried
to work with her and finally she just could not do it. If
you raised her arm up and let go it would just drop. So I
took her to her pediatrician about the end of July which was
about 10 months and they thought it was maybe a pinched nerve
or something so she was set up with an appointment around the
1st week of August. I took her and they immediatly wanted an
MRI done. They found a tumor that went from 4th and 5th vertebre
(leftside) around her neck and down under her armpit. After
3 weeks of waiting for results and appointment for a
Neurosurgeon, the nerosurgeon wanted another MRI done to see
details of this tumor and how to go about trying to remove it.
The tumor had grown much larger in size. They sent her to a
Pediactric Nerosurgen at Vanderbilt Childrens Hospital which
is 6 hrs away from us. Her app. there was September 19, 2007.
We celebrated her 1st birthday in the meantime on Sept. 6, 2006.
She was always so playful and you never would have known there
was anything wrong, she acted like any other child at that age.
She could not crawl, she would drag herself around by pushing
with her left leg and pulling with her right arm. She would
pull herself up to a standing position with her right arm as
her left just hung. We went to the app in Vanderbillt prepared
to stay for a while knowing that she needed to be treated right
then. The doctor looked at her previous MRI's and wanted her to
have another done to see how much more it had grown. Her app.
was on a wednesday. They done the MRI on Thursday and found out
friday that the tumor had grown so much that he was amazed that
she was not PARALYZED! He said that the tumor was comressing
her spinal cord and needed to do a surgery to decompress and
take biopsy. Her Surgery was scheduled for that following
Tuesday Sept 25, 2007. The night before surgery at 12:00 she
was givin her last bottle, she went to sleep and woke me up at
4:30 that morning crying, I went to console her and her left
side was paralyzed. They did the surgery and was unable to
remove all of it just enough to give us "a window of opportunity"
the DR said. He came out from surgery and told us that it was
cancer but unknown of what kind until sent off to Pathology Labs.
He said that when he went in to decompress the spinal cord there
were 3 more root pods growing on her spinal cord and another tumor
coming up from behind compressing in the same place. He was
able to remove the root pods and decompress spinal cord
successfully. She had a 4-5 inch incision on the back of
her neck up the back of her head. They had to shave a pathway
on the back of her head. She spent the night in the PICU
because they did not want her moving that much. The next
day she was sent to a regular room. They wanted her to move
now as much as possible. They said they did not want her neck
to be stiff the rest of her life. So I had to work with her
moving her neck back and fourth up and down. We went home
Friday September 28, 2007 to recover and to wait on Pathology
to send back results. The following week I had to take her to
vanderbilt (6 hrs there 6 hrs back) twice that week. She had
to go get a bone-scan and CT done, and then to meet with
oncologist. She was rushed back to Vanderbilt on Saturday
October 13, 2007 because we woke up and she was paralyzed in
her left side AGAIN! They immediatly started emergency Chemo.
They did another MRI and the tumor had grown back and MORE!
This time it was much larger and more aggressive, it had grown
in such a way that they could not touch it with surgery.
Chemo did not even phase it! It was too agressive to control.
Then we got the news on October 16, 2007 that there was nothing
else they could do. Something I never thought I would hear.
They said that she would live a couple weeks. Me and my husband
were too shocked to even cry at the moment. As I stood by her
bedside after that I sobbed to the point the oncologist and
doctors had to leave the room and nurses had to come in and
calm me down. I always wanted a little girl, I always seen
myself having a boy and a girl. From the time I found out I
was having a girl I was the happiest person in the world.
I would just sit and daydream about how close me and her were
going to be and what all we were going to do together when she
grew up. I already had her name picked out before she was
even thought about. Allison Kay Faulks. She wanted me and
only me--all the time!!! Where I went she went. We were
inseperable. When it came time for us to bring her home,
we left and came home on Saturday October 20, 2007 in the
care of HOSPICE. She was on constant IV fluids and morphine,
ativan,oxycodone,steriods, antibiotic, cell count med,
laxatives, thrush med, and(benedryl,tylenol,suppositories,
ibuprofin as needed). She was at was seemed to be a stand
still for 3 weeks, not getting better but not getting worse.
On the third week she started running high fevers but we were
able to control them. On Thursday November 15, 2007 at 11:00
that night she had a stroke. I have never in my life seen
anything as scary as that. Her left eye was looking left and
right eye looking right and she tried so hard to focus on me
and could not. I stood holding her hand while she lay in her
crib squeezing my hand as I talk to her and tell her It's
going to be OK. At that point I went into my bathroom in
my room and immediatly started praying to God:PLEASE I
CANNOT HANDLE SEEING HER LIKE THAT, IF IT IS YOUR WILL
TO TAKE HER PLEASE TAKE HER NOW INSTEAD OF MAKING HER
SUFFER, I CANNOT HANDLE IT, PLEASE PUT HER INTO A DEEP
SLEEP IN MY ARMS AND PLEASE I DON'T WANT HER TO STRUGGLE
FOR AIR, THEN TAKE HER BUT I WANT HER TO KNOW THAT I AM
WITH HER ALWAYS. By that time I called the HOSPICE nurse
and told her what was going on and they said "This is the
last stage, prepare yourself, this is her dying process".
I could not belive it, I still kept it in my mind that god
was going to make her a miracle. I slept with her on the
couch which was our new bedroom since Allison came home we
had to move her crib in the living room so I could watch
her at all times. I slept holding her hand most of the night.
When I woke up she started moving around and she opened her
eyes up a little bit and her eyes were still that way from
stroke, her face on the left side started twitching and got
to the point where it was making her little mouth smack.
She was having seizure activity. I called HOSPICE and told
them and they said to give her Ativan and I did. They said
that would calm her down so we would not have watch that.
The doctor had told us before we brought her home that she
would die from the tumor making it's way to the brain and
hit the brain stem and the voluntary nerve that tells you
to breath, which will effect that and make her stop breathing
and shut the brain down. After I gave her the Ativan God
answered my prayers. She then went into a deep sleep and
was unresponsive and I would open her eyelids to see if
there was any movement and they were at a constant stare,
I knew in my heart she was already gone but I had to wait
for her body to go threw it's process. This was Friday and
the family came down to hold her because as I said I was
the only one who could hold her, she would kick her right
foot and start winning if you even looked at her. I was
able to sleep beside her all night holding on to her not
knowing if she was going to fly away in the middle of the
night, I could not hardly sleep at all I was waking up
every few minutes to make sure she was still breathing.
( After she had her stoke thursday night I had to hook
her up to the oxygen machine). She made it threw the
night which HOSPICE didn't think she would and we had
tons of people at the house spending time with us and
Allison knowing at any time she was going to be gone.
Everyone got their share of holding her and telling
their good-byes. Throughout the day her breathing
would be good and then drop to 8 respirations a minute.
At about 4:45 my mother-in-law was holding her and my son
ran up to Allison and was waving and said "bye-bye sissy,
bye-bye sissy". A few minutes after that her breathing
had dropped real low again and I took her and sat down
knowing what was about to happen. I wrapped her up in her
two favorite blankets(one she was being buried with and the
other she had since birth) as I sat and watched her take a
breath and released I held my breath until she took her next.
Like I said 8 breaths a minute. At 5:40 she took her last
breath and released and never took another. The look that
came over her face was so amazing, as he lips turned white
and her face was losing color her long dark eyelashes she
truly became and looked just like an angel. The look was
of peacefullness and a cancer-free, free from pain precious
look. I was so proud of her for having the strength to hold
on for 4 weeks to the day of us coming home. She is my Hero
and my Angel and there will never be another Allison that
could make you just smile with a look on her face. She was
and still is cherished my mommy, daddy,
junbug and the rest who knew her.
You are my forever blooming Rose
You are my forever blooming rose, deep within my heart and my soul.
You are the sun ray that beats down on me, and brings me your warmth.
You are the stars that twinkle above, so that I will no longer be in darkness.
You are my eternal love, my forever blooming rose.
You are the rivers that shares your water, when I thirst for you.
You are my courage, when I feel all alone.
You are the trees that shades me and protects me.
You are my eternal love my forever blooming rose.
You are the dove that brings me peace.
You are the one who brings me hope.
You are the flower that blooms deep within me.
For you are my eternal love, my forever blooming rose.
I'm going to tell you something
I hope you'll never have to know
I'll tell you how a heart can break
and tears will constantly flow
I lost my baby girl you see
an Angel in my eyes
God chose to take her hand one day
and led her to the skies
please don't forget my child
she was a person too
she will forever live
inside of me and you
so please don't ver tell me
that time will heal the pain
because not even time
will bring her back again
just tell me she is happy
in that land way up above
she is snuggled in Angels wings
wrapped up in mommy's love!
Author-unknown-
God saw she was getting tired
and a cure was not to be
so God put his arms around her
and whispered "come with me"
with tearful eyes
we watched her suffer
and saw her fade away
although we loved her dearly
we could not make her stay
a golden heart stopped beating
and playful hands to rest
God broke our hearts to prove to us
HE ONLY TAKES THE BEST!!
Author-unknown-
In Loving Memory Of
Allison Kay Faulks
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