Jill Michelle,
When I think of you,

I think of a Yellow Sun Flower field. They are all standing tall in the sunshine. A huge field of Yellow! You used to tell me they were smiling and waving at us. You hated it when they turned black in the Fall, it made you sad and you wondered why that had to be.

You loved Butterflies and Dragon flies and would try and catch them. If you did catch one, you would examine them for a long time! You had so many pets on the farm. I especially think of your cat Fluffer, you carried him around the house like a rag doll. He loved you so much. Than there was Petey she was a little terrior and she had a puppy you named Popcorn! Bird Dog was a red Irish Setter that used to let you sleep on her chest. One day I found you eating dog food with her and talking away to her and she seemed to look you straight in the eyes and listen. I did not scold you for eating the dog food. You were just being kind and sharing!

You loved your swing. Your Daddy made It from a tire and hung it from a Oak tree in our front yard. You spent alot of time in it with your dolls.

I remember you talked about Jesus like he was your best friend and He was... It amazed people how smart you were at your young age.

Your Dad and I were devastated the day you died. You had been our little sunshine and our lives revolved around you. It was very hard to be without you darling.

I thank God that we have the hope of one day being together for all eternity. this life we live here on earth is but a tear drop and than it is over... but the life we live for Jesus is for ever and ever. One day I will again hold you in my arms but for now I hold you in my heart.
Love,Mom

Ryon Dale,
When I think of you

My heart softens and my arms ache to hold you again. You only lived 2 days. You were such a beautiful baby boy. Dark curly brown hair, so thick! you looked so much like your Daddy.

I was glad for the time I carried you in my belly. For the little kicks you gave me to let me know you were alive. One day I remember I spoke to my belly and told you that if it was up to me you could just "stay in there". I carried you 10 full months. Back then they did not induce me.

The first time I saw you I felt so blest to have a son... I remember your smile and the tear in your eye, the only time I got to hold you. You looked right into my eyes and smiled and a single tear drop trinkled down your face and I imagined I could read your thoughts and that you said to me, "good bye mommy, I love you." I told you "I love you too son." right than I knew I would never see you again.

They transferred you to a larger hospitol but it was to late. You had lost to much oxygen and surgery could not be done. You died the next day. I still remember the phone call from the hospitol telling me my son was dead. Your funeral was the first funeral I had ever been to in my life. I was only , just, 19 years old.

One day I will hold you again and rock a bye you. I will sing you songs and tell you stories and I will cuddle you to my breast. This I believe with my whole heart.
Love, MOM

Child of Mine

What glorious peace,
What blessed hope!
I am my Lord's and He is mine.
Wondrous love, O joy divine!

Kneeling in prayer,
His sweet face I see,
And I hear Him whisper,
"My child, come unto me."

He calls me by name
As I bow at His feet;
And I linger in His presence,
Rapt in ecstasy sweet.

His tender voice I hear,
Speaking softly in my ear,
"Child of mine have no fear;
Through every storm I'll be near.

I'll guide you, and I'll lead you,
I'll walk by your side.
I'll never, never leave you,
And in me you can hide.

Give me your burdens
Too heavy to bear.
Give me every heartache,
Every pain and every care.

I'll heal your broken heart;
I'll wipe all your tears away.
I'll bear you up on eagle's wings,
And I'll give you strength for today."

"My child, hear My voice,"
He calls from above.
I feel His power all around me,
And nothing can separate me
from His LOVE.

~ Wanda Sherman ~© 1999

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