Naomi Louise

In Memory of Naomi Louise

Born 2 February 1983
Died 2 February 1983

20 years ago I was pregnant with my first child. For five wonderful months I watched and waited whilst this tiny miracle grew inside my body

One morning I woke up and knew in my heart something was wrong. I never felt my angel move all day. Sadly she had gone home to her heavenly father. I went into labour that night and gave birth to a stillborn child. In those days grief for an unborn child was not understood. I never got to see or hold my daughter. It was thought best if she was taken away and buried. No memorial service or funeral was held. But I held her forever in my heart. As the years past I may have not grieved as heavily but I never forgot. Even though I was blessed with two more children. They could never have filled the space in my heart that was reserved for Naomi Louise. I believe she watches and waits in heaven where I will finally hold her in my arms.

I was searching for ways to remember her five months of life and just couldn't find the words. Then God gave me some special words which I believe is for me to share. My prayer is that one person finds the comfort I found in this story:

Jesus was walking through his garden, surrounded by a heavenly host.

He came to the smallest and gentlest angel and cradled her in his arms. He said My Father has chosen you for a special job. I am going to lend you to someone for a time. But the littlest angel begged him not to send her away from heaven. There were tears in her eyes as she pleaded saying that she could not bear to be separated from God.

God looked on her with compassion and true to His promise. He never gave more than she could bear. He said she had made her choice and she would never know separation from Him.

But the Lord also knew the longing in his child on earth's heart. He asked the angel to go for five short months. So as to live as a memory forever in his precious childs heart.

Though I will never hold the angel on earth. I know because of that gift, my baby angel will always look down from above.